Enis Farahaini
Saturday, 4 June 2011
what if?
10:10
B2ST-ON RAINY DAYS
8A PMR STUDENTS.
WE PROUD TO BE IN SERI DUNGUN.
SIMPLE WORDS- I WANT THEM BACK IN MY LIFE.
WHAT IF?
i dont know why but i keep thinking this night. all the things make me to cry, childish girl , am i? spoilt bratz girl. but i dont want too but i realise something missing . i miss that time. i wish to come back at the moment where these people cheer up my days. although that may be the worst day ever, these people will always turn up the rain somehow to rainbow. i still keep in mind that there were no my days in past 2 years which i was in form 3 to be the worst day. all i did in the days were studied, attending the class, went to tuition.. but i never tired of all that kind of things. but i felt happy, soooo happy! i never things to compete anybody, but what i did, to achieve my target. to be what i wanted. i didnt care all the critics. with the strenght of determination, i kept struggling because i believed that i willl succeed. i never feel tired of it because? i have fun. fun with all my friends. it was nice to have best friends in school. during recess time, we walked in a group, enjoy our meal, spent time at some place we called it as 'TITANIC'. I MISS THAT TIME. but it was past. it would never come back. HAHA. i still remembered ALYANI. sorry to mention your name, because you should be proud, among 4 SAINS HAYAT students, i remembered you the most. yes, of course GTL too. always. itik? HAHA. how i miss that time. goofy around but never lost focus on my target.
4 al-batani
keep moving on my life in mara junior science college besut. i would be a liar if i tell you guys that i never feel happy to be here. yes. i had great days also in here. sometimes. when 'mak cik' aka DINNIE will play around with me, when ubai make fun of me, when .... i cant think anyone more. maybe when teacher nuraini back-up me, maybe when teacher saidah make fun of me in the class, maybe when sir azmy say "PAHAM? BAGOOOS! ;)" they cheer up my days. maybe because of them, i believe i can survive. but along asked me if i oke to be in MJSC BESUT? am i? am i oke? am i happy that musch like i was in SERI DUNGUN? the answer for along question : NO.
there are a few months i have to pass through in MJSC BESUT. instead i want the days pass as soon as possible, i have a dream. yes. TO ACHIEVE MY TARGET.
oke guys. till next time. thanks for those read this.
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Saturday, 30 April 2011
life in MJSC besut just like a ....!
19:22
aku xnak balik, xnak balik la. yang pihak maktab nak paksa sangat students dye suh balik apsal? kan da bagi balik, bia la balik terus ke. x perlu untuk kembali ke sana lagi x bole ka? ikut kan la, aku tak hingin nak balik sane.., cuak jah! baek aku merembat masuk sekolah sery ke apa, lantak la mana2 pon, sebab aku betol2 da cuak untuk sekolah di maktab rendah sains mara besut yang tercinta itu! tekanan yang di kenakan kepada kepala otak aku nie pon x hilang lagi, manusia manusia manusia! hanya tahu untuk mengkritik, ini tak betol itu salah , kau buat la sendiri aku nak tengok betol ke tidak kau buat tu.. ahh, betapa kali aku menjerit pon, aku tetap kene balik kat tempat tu, ahh! cuak, bosan, rase cam nak lari kan diri je dari tempat tu! faham tak bila aku sebut perkataan X BEST tu cam ne? cuak cuak cuak! dengan orang sekeliling nya betul2 buat ak cuak sampai nak muntah, taw tak sampai nak muntah tu camne? tahap maksimun taw x? biasa la enis, hidup remaja ad suka duka.., aku taw la tu, tapi ak da cuak! seriously, i'm sick with the people in there! i made a single mistake, i got to be punish, never mind. but when other people made a lot mistakes, betol2 buat ak cuak. cam aku nie manusia yg x d benarkan untuk melakukan kesilapan kah? because someday said that i'm too comfortable with my result..,4.0? please la, ak struggle tiap2 ai tu, tu ke name ak comfortable berbanding dengan korang yang duk tito pagi petang siang malam tu? common ah, aku letih dan cuak taw dengan kritikan korang semua. yes, i can accept your critics but not for everyday,! i'm tired and sick of it! 5 months to go, to be in the hell? no to be in this MJSC BESUT, sometimes it's like paradise, but for now.., it just like.. i dont wanna say that word oke. people say i cant do the things right, but i'm not the idiot to let the thing that they said become true, so just WATCH ME. I WILL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL THE END OF MY LIFE! AND I AM NOT THE ONE WHO WAS GONNA CRYING FOR YOUR CRITICS BUT I AM THE ONE WHO GONNA LEAVE YOU GUYS BEHIND.
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO STRUGGLES!
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Wednesday, 17 November 2010
Gee, ;)
04:54
ya, no matter what gonna face me, i will try hard to make my dream become reality, what i have dreamed for? emm, to show the people, the world that i can be a better person that people around me think that i cant do that, but just wait, who gonna be success, and i am not totally the loser, STRUGGLES!
umm, 45 % yes, i just dont wanna remember about myself in the past, mostly when i was in skbd, and i just no need to be scared about the past, just keep moving forward, leading the world, MOVE ON, ;)
umm, certain friends, because all my friends, almost 95 % just have been changed a lot, and u know what, I HATE IT! ,BTW, if you guys forget me, what can i do, sad, dispointed, not at all, i am not type the person anymore, i am already move on, and didnt like to remember about the past, because PAST is the PAST,
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Sunday, 14 November 2010
dream for it, ;)
22:26
if you had a DREAM as i have it, the thing i can do is to make MY DREAM become reality and not just be a
The most difficult person to FACE in life is yourself.
A GRATEFUL heart is the cure for loneliness.
Do not judge the FUTURE by the past.
Never stop reaching for the GOAL in front.
Hold on to your BELIEF, then you will overcome difficulties.
TRIVIALITIES can accumulate to an important episode.
Kind DEEDS can bring good returns.
DREAM is our motivation in life.
WISDOM is to understand that the world is ever-changing.
SINCERITY is a natural spring of water.
Danger brings us TRUE friends.
SMILE is the first step of a new life.
So, go on with your life with a new spirit.
Everyday is a new day.
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Saturday, 13 November 2010
a flashback,
02:16
this song so meaningfull huh, "HAUNTED",
by someone that we used to be together, laugh, smile,
but it's over now, for what?
to lead to success, ,to be a better person
the word
whenever i go, i know this thing doesn't important at all for now,
cause i'm too young for it, and don't worry mom,
i'm already let it go from my life,
now i'm focusing SPM + SPC! [ LOVE YOU MOM ] ;)
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and its all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake
Oh, holding my breath
Won't lose you again
Something's made your eyes go cold
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now
I'm haunted
Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I say to you
He will try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead
Oh, holding my breath
Won't see you again
Something keeps me holding on to nothing
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/haunted-lyrics-taylor-swift.html ]
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now
I'm haunted
I know
I know
I just know
You're not gone
You can't be gone
No
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started
Come on, come on
Don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
I can't go back
I'm haunted
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it
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Friday, 12 November 2010
dont care at all,
06:42
dont care :
-for what they had done
-they forget me,so what?
-about things that had gone, things i had already let it gone,
-what people would say about me
-and mostly people that already change a lot,
and i care about :
-myself
-family, true friends
-my precious time
-my final sem 2 result
-education
-SPM next year in 2011,preparation
-my tuition
-taking chances to be a better person,
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-for what they had done
-they forget me,so what?
-about things that had gone, things i had already let it gone,
-what people would say about me
-and mostly people that already change a lot,
and i care about :
-myself
-family, true friends
-my precious time
-my final sem 2 result
-education
-SPM next year in 2011,preparation
-my tuition
-taking chances to be a better person,
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Sunday, 12 September 2010
ak harus bangkit?
06:46
smpai ble ak harus begini.. ak leka. ak leka dlm dunie yg tidak wujud d alam nyata..,
ak mengenang yg lepas.., ak impi kan suatu yg tidak nyata..,
i'm lost.. ak menyedari nye..,
namun diri ini berkate, xpe2.. esok masih ad..
yeah,esok masih ad..,namun ak masih dlm kelekaan..
ak benci diri ini.. ak benci akn situasi nie..
everybody looks that they had moved on..
and me? still living in fairytale huh? i keep on dreaming something that i already let it go, and in this my heart..,deep in my soul.. i still beleive that everything that i had let go..,will be back again and will be the same..
but it's not gonna happen,because i'm let it go away from my life..
because i never felt grateful to Him..
and now i feel much alone,when i heard a song.., about friendship,happy life..,
i feel anoying,because i feel that i'm just the one in this world that i dont get it..,
but i'm wrong again..,because there's a lot people out there being through something harder situation than me.., but myself still never change..,
i had gone to bad..,i'm living in fairytale..,and i still hope for it..,
i didn't stand by my own,i need somebody else stand for me..,
gosh..,everything just change.. and i need find way to fix it back..
i cant be like this anymore,i need find the ways..,to let myself getting better,move on,and live in reality.. i cant lose hope,
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ak mengenang yg lepas.., ak impi kan suatu yg tidak nyata..,
i'm lost.. ak menyedari nye..,
namun diri ini berkate, xpe2.. esok masih ad..
yeah,esok masih ad..,namun ak masih dlm kelekaan..
ak benci diri ini.. ak benci akn situasi nie..
everybody looks that they had moved on..
and me? still living in fairytale huh? i keep on dreaming something that i already let it go, and in this my heart..,deep in my soul.. i still beleive that everything that i had let go..,will be back again and will be the same..
but it's not gonna happen,because i'm let it go away from my life..
because i never felt grateful to Him..
and now i feel much alone,when i heard a song.., about friendship,happy life..,
i feel anoying,because i feel that i'm just the one in this world that i dont get it..,
but i'm wrong again..,because there's a lot people out there being through something harder situation than me.., but myself still never change..,
i had gone to bad..,i'm living in fairytale..,and i still hope for it..,
i didn't stand by my own,i need somebody else stand for me..,
gosh..,everything just change.. and i need find way to fix it back..
i cant be like this anymore,i need find the ways..,to let myself getting better,move on,and live in reality.. i cant lose hope,
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Friday, 10 September 2010
kepuasan!
19:09
haha. adehhh,syok nye tito.. haha., nie bru bgun ah nie.. koul 10,kuakua.
bgun2,tgop lu tv jap..,xde cter best ah. bosan goh la.
tu yg p amik laptop nie.. haha. dan p la kat blog ak nie.
da xtaw nak buat ape lgi da. waaahhh,bosan nye..
agak2 nye nak buat ap eh ai nie? emmm.,?
kompem x g jln2 da ai nie..,coz smlm da p braye..
wahh,nak buat ap? nak kuar uma ah.. bosan jah law duk lam uma.
pelik bebnor ak cuti nie..,bese nak duk uma,skunk nak kuar plop..
ak perlu kn perubahan..,nak dapat baru kot. haha.
key la,x banyak ak nak cter pagi nie coz xde pape yg ak lalui lgi buat ai nie.
just simple je.. anyway ak nak p turun bawah,nak mkn..
hahaah. ;D
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bgun2,tgop lu tv jap..,xde cter best ah. bosan goh la.
tu yg p amik laptop nie.. haha. dan p la kat blog ak nie.
da xtaw nak buat ape lgi da. waaahhh,bosan nye..
agak2 nye nak buat ap eh ai nie? emmm.,?
kompem x g jln2 da ai nie..,coz smlm da p braye..
wahh,nak buat ap? nak kuar uma ah.. bosan jah law duk lam uma.
pelik bebnor ak cuti nie..,bese nak duk uma,skunk nak kuar plop..
ak perlu kn perubahan..,nak dapat baru kot. haha.
key la,x banyak ak nak cter pagi nie coz xde pape yg ak lalui lgi buat ai nie.
just simple je.. anyway ak nak p turun bawah,nak mkn..
hahaah. ;D
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Thursday, 9 September 2010
raye! raye!
21:20
haha. walaupun hari nie d namakan hari raye,
namun badak ak jah bgun lewat.. kire awal gak la drpd bese..
kul 8 lbey kot.. haha. p xget ready g.. lek2 lu..,enjoy keheningan siang hari yg amat sejuk hinggakan mencucuk tulang-belulang ak nie. nie la ayat yg paling merapu skali.. haha.
tapi seprti bese,tulang blakang ak nie semakin hari semakin sakit..
kadang2 tu nak study..,sakit nye belakang ak.. hanya Allah yg tahu tyme tu..
namun,demi menuntut sekelumit ilmu..
ak gagah kn diri nie walaupun cam nak berdarah mengalir air mate ak sakit nye blakang..
insyaAllah,xde ape2.. ak harap ok2 je lah..
seperti taun lalu..,ak la yg kene masuk kn duit raye lam sampul..
bagai kerja tuh da di cop untuk ak..
pelik juga..,kn ad rmai anak2 sedare len yg ley handle..,
balik2 ak gak yg kene.. aiihhh..,ntah la..
p seronok juga.. for refreshment.. haha. bgun2 tito..,buat mende tuh..
elok sangat la.. amik spirit raye.. haha.
tu la..,makin da besar nie.. raye makin x happening kan..
sesape rase makin besar raye makin hapenning,kasi taw kat ak..
terkejut badak ah ak jupe orang cam tu..
ak ckp la kat kak ida..,ye ckp normal ahh tu coz kite kn makin growing up.
law cam dye tu,da keje lgi la rase kosong..
haha. ntah la.
pagi xde anta la msej raye kat kekwn..
seronok juga..,rmai geng2 merbok reply.. igt lgi ehh korang kat ak?
terharu nie.. cam nak air mate darah nak ngalir.. haha.
kak naem..,wahhh.. rindu nye..
kak naem suh ye doa kn spm t.. insyaAllah,ak akn doa kn agar kak naem buat yg terbaek..
ye la..,bnyk budi dye tabur kan untuk sk..
igt lagi..,walaupun dye bz nak exam..,p asal ak nak tnye bab physics,dye on saje.
haha. tu la bab yg paling best dlm diri kak naem.. sentiase cool..
igt lagi..,mule2 dtg merbok.. kat dye la ak cte masalah..
bapak homesick tyme tuh..,tapi dye la pembakar semangat dlm diri nie,
jutaan time kasih buat kak naem.. sungguh,ak beruntung dapat jupe orang seperti diri nye..
dapat ak merase kasih sayang dari seorang akak kn..
duk kat besut nie.. panggil je akak..,tapi bkn bersifat kakak..
emm..,maybe kakak,tapi kakak tiri.. tgop adik cam nak gocoh..
hahaha. ohh..,ya cakap2 ngan kak zura.., ye tnye best ke skola besut?
kuuuuuuaaaa.. best? bapak best gle. haha. x best langusung.., direct ak jawab smbil d perhati kan oleh ayh ak..
namun,ayh ak still selamba badak dye..
buat2 x taw.. lantak la.. malas ak nak berdebat dgn nye d pagi raye nie..
nak suasana cool cam nie jah..
haha. tgop ank2 sdare ak nie..,seronok gak..
langsung xde problem.. keje dye orang men je..
haha. k la..,t ak sambung balik.. amsyar,mengacau ak je. haha
key,bye guys! till next time. ;)
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namun badak ak jah bgun lewat.. kire awal gak la drpd bese..
kul 8 lbey kot.. haha. p xget ready g.. lek2 lu..,enjoy keheningan siang hari yg amat sejuk hinggakan mencucuk tulang-belulang ak nie. nie la ayat yg paling merapu skali.. haha.
tapi seprti bese,tulang blakang ak nie semakin hari semakin sakit..
kadang2 tu nak study..,sakit nye belakang ak.. hanya Allah yg tahu tyme tu..
namun,demi menuntut sekelumit ilmu..
ak gagah kn diri nie walaupun cam nak berdarah mengalir air mate ak sakit nye blakang..
insyaAllah,xde ape2.. ak harap ok2 je lah..
seperti taun lalu..,ak la yg kene masuk kn duit raye lam sampul..
bagai kerja tuh da di cop untuk ak..
pelik juga..,kn ad rmai anak2 sedare len yg ley handle..,
balik2 ak gak yg kene.. aiihhh..,ntah la..
p seronok juga.. for refreshment.. haha. bgun2 tito..,buat mende tuh..
elok sangat la.. amik spirit raye.. haha.
tu la..,makin da besar nie.. raye makin x happening kan..
sesape rase makin besar raye makin hapenning,kasi taw kat ak..
terkejut badak ah ak jupe orang cam tu..
ak ckp la kat kak ida..,ye ckp normal ahh tu coz kite kn makin growing up.
law cam dye tu,da keje lgi la rase kosong..
haha. ntah la.
pagi xde anta la msej raye kat kekwn..
seronok juga..,rmai geng2 merbok reply.. igt lgi ehh korang kat ak?
terharu nie.. cam nak air mate darah nak ngalir.. haha.
kak naem..,wahhh.. rindu nye..
kak naem suh ye doa kn spm t.. insyaAllah,ak akn doa kn agar kak naem buat yg terbaek..
ye la..,bnyk budi dye tabur kan untuk sk..
igt lagi..,walaupun dye bz nak exam..,p asal ak nak tnye bab physics,dye on saje.
haha. tu la bab yg paling best dlm diri kak naem.. sentiase cool..
igt lagi..,mule2 dtg merbok.. kat dye la ak cte masalah..
bapak homesick tyme tuh..,tapi dye la pembakar semangat dlm diri nie,
jutaan time kasih buat kak naem.. sungguh,ak beruntung dapat jupe orang seperti diri nye..
dapat ak merase kasih sayang dari seorang akak kn..
duk kat besut nie.. panggil je akak..,tapi bkn bersifat kakak..
emm..,maybe kakak,tapi kakak tiri.. tgop adik cam nak gocoh..
hahaha. ohh..,ya cakap2 ngan kak zura.., ye tnye best ke skola besut?
kuuuuuuaaaa.. best? bapak best gle. haha. x best langusung.., direct ak jawab smbil d perhati kan oleh ayh ak..
namun,ayh ak still selamba badak dye..
buat2 x taw.. lantak la.. malas ak nak berdebat dgn nye d pagi raye nie..
nak suasana cool cam nie jah..
haha. tgop ank2 sdare ak nie..,seronok gak..
langsung xde problem.. keje dye orang men je..
haha. k la..,t ak sambung balik.. amsyar,mengacau ak je. haha
key,bye guys! till next time. ;)
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Thursday, 15 July 2010
sh*t challenge
17:53
i'm tired.
if anyone can stop all this,please make it stop.
or make it back to normal.
like i used to be.
why i have to go through all this again?
sh*t,stupid.. only words i can say now.
nothing more.
i keep trembling..trying hard..struggling..
but somehow,i feel sooo tired.
but nobody care about that.,
cause's everyone so selfish,
cause's somebody dont know how to appreciate something that i have done.
they keep pushing and pushing me.
dont know if i still can be strong enough.
but it's all my fault.
my fault,yes. how fool i am eyh..
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if anyone can stop all this,please make it stop.
or make it back to normal.
like i used to be.
why i have to go through all this again?
sh*t,stupid.. only words i can say now.
nothing more.
i keep trembling..trying hard..struggling..
but somehow,i feel sooo tired.
but nobody care about that.,
cause's everyone so selfish,
cause's somebody dont know how to appreciate something that i have done.
they keep pushing and pushing me.
dont know if i still can be strong enough.
but it's all my fault.
my fault,yes. how fool i am eyh..
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